Not all posts can be elightening and uplifting. I think that it is important to understand the times of struggle as well as all of the good times. It paints a more realistic picture of the person. So it has been a while since I have blogged. Part of the reason is all of the struggling that I have been doing over the last six weeks or so.
Three days before my last day of the school year, I was informed that I would probably not have a job for the next school year. What a horrible way to end my seventh year teaching. I had a really good year with my class and was looking forward to a new school year. Now there is such uncertainty.
Can anyone possibly imagine what goes through your head when you find out that you will no longer be able to support yourself and your family. Awful thoughts of losing everything comes to mind. Struggling to survive. I have done it before and it is the worst feeling in the world, only now I have so much more to lose.
I try to remain optomistic. However, I definetly have those days where I feel discouraged and defeated. I have worked most of my life to become a teacher. To have that dream taken (temporary as it may be) is just heartbreaking. I am hopeful that something will change in the next two weeks to change that. I am holding my breath and waiting....waiting...waiting. I hate waiting!
